Oh, guys.

2 February 2012

I fail.

Soo… in case you haven’t been following my random Tumblr posts, I’m not too interested in blogging or making stuff for other people anymore. Sigh… I’m sorry guys :*(.

I’m more than happy to make custom graphics and answer questions and stuff, and I’ll probably be updated more (er… a bit more) on Deathleigh, but I feel Heartless may need a revamp whenever I get the inspiration.

That is all.

A HIATUS Notice

6 November 2011

I know that you guys hate these things because the internet nowadays is flooded with them, but since my poor websites have barely been updated for the past two months, I’d like to say a few things:
1.) Because I have college applications due soon, and school and the like, I am very stressed and haven’t been motivated to do really anything lately. I’ll admit that I’ve been slacking when it comes to typing up my essays (they’re written but not typed…) and I guess that since my applications aren’t due until January, it’s pretty hard to do them now (ahaha) but I’m just pretty stressed about it. When I’m stressed, I don’t do anything except think about what I’m stressed about and do worthless things online. My creativity is blown :(.
2.) I don’t want to dump Heartless, or any of my other sites, and I’m not going to. I say this because so many people just throw their sites away but again, I still love maintaining websites and this will hopefully all pass soon and Heartless can be updated again.
3.) As said on one of my Tumblr posts, I’m not very into blogging anymore. Perhaps to voice my opinion, but I’m just not into it anymore :/.
4.) I opened my new website (http://Deathleigh.info—which you should check out! ;D) and I got a Tumblr: Noireuse (you should follow me ;D). In case you want to keep in contact while my college applications are not being done.
Thanks for reading my stupid HIATUS post… again. And thanks for you support (Heartless still has hits!). I really appreciate it :).

The Relative Tree

16 September 2011

Sometimes, I just don’t know what to think of family. The concept, I mean, of always sticking by family because it’s so much more important than anything else could be. I personally don’t believe in it, but seeing as much of my family does, I sometimes feel like some ungrateful little beech whenever I complain about having to be with family. I’m so different from them.

I’ve always seen family members as just other people to choose to befriend or not.

I mentioned before about how I’ve been visiting my grandpa every now and then, but I didn’t mention how I really hate spending long hours in a depressing hospital, talking only about health-related subjects. My grandpa is one of the people I respect most; he’s always respected me, so I’ve felt badly about not going to see him as often as other people or as often as others say I should. But I really can’t feel others’ pain; it’s not that I don’t care but that I’d rather spend my time doing things I enjoy, not being in a hospital. I feel so careless…

But as for the healthy part of my family, I don’t know what to say. I get along with my distant family members pretty well, especially since all we talk about now is college applications (fhghh blegh), but we also don’t meet very often. As for my immediate family, I only get along with my hospitalised grandpa and one of my uncles; sometimes my parents and my grandma. We have different values, personalities and interests, so it’s a bit difficult to get along sometimes. I’ve often gotten dragged places I didn’t want to be until I finally stood my ground. But that sounds rather terrible, doesn’t it? Standing up to family. But why should it be so terrible? I hope that people don’t extend the family tree so they can have their own people to control. That sounds rather terrible, too.

I went up to my family reunion a few weeks ago and it made me a bit nervous, being the outcast that I am. It wasn’t as boring as I expected it to be, but as I left, I got a friendly warning of, “Beware of the hippies!” and I thought, Yup. I am indeed very different from my family.